It only struck me earlier. This, in full time work, Monday to Friday 8:30 till 5:00. This is my life. Like, until i retire. Estimating that at today’s 68 years old for men, that’s another 50 years. I haven’t even lived half of half that long (that’s 25 years for those without a calculator). This IS the better part of my life…
Now some of you reading ths may already be in full time work and will have most probably gone through this stage, so know how i’m feeling. Others among you; with current economic times i’m guessing a majority, may have not, in which case let me describe how it feels. You know in school/College when you seemed to be facing an endless stream of work from which you feel there is no hope of ever overcoming. Well, it’s that, only the end isn’t a few years away, but 50 years away and i can’t just look for y11’s or A2 students to keep my hopes up as everyone i work with is older than me and still stuck in the same loop. In a couple of words, terribly soul destroying.
Having typed that, i will most likely feel completely different tomorrow when i’m payed (Finally! :D) and then i will be posting the joys of work. But till then, today was my first truly bad day at work. I think my main co-workers dislike me and i can’t understand why. My boss, although we get along ok, thinks i’m always doing something wrong or messing something up, but she never “has a go at me”, she’s just “telling me”. No offence to her but i get that enough from my mum. Don’t worry, they don’t visit this website, although i asked them to.
The staff who i don’t even work with directly seem to think i’m an idiot and quite honestly, i admit I’ve given them, despite my best efforts to look professional, any evidence to the contrary. But hey, all things considered, i shouldn’t be complaining. A job one week out of College, that pays well; i got lucky. So what if i undergo a little subtle workplace bullying. I’ve been subject to bullying nearly my whole educated life. It can’t really do me any more harm.
It’s just sad that i though as a kid, and as a young adult, that i understood what people were talking about when they said “be a kid for as long as you can, and enjoy it while it lasts”. I thought they meant don’t let work bog you down and live your life to the full. Now i know they just meant, enjoy not being in full time employment and getting summer holidays. Nothing prepeared me for the rest of my life, and now here it is….
That Other Guy